I hate apologizing but...

I'm sorry I'm boring, and annoying, and proud. I'm sorry I'm invisible, and forgettable, and easy to walk by.

I don't know how I'll manage, really, such a failure in advance. Not worthy of admiration, respect, love, envy or time.

I'm sorry I'm insecure. I'm sorry I love myself so little. I'm sorry I hate making mistakes yet I make them all the time and end up hating myself for that. I'm sorry...

I'm sorry, I wish I was perfect and happy, that girl everyone loves. Someone else, someone worth knowing and remembering.

Sometime I feel I have nothing left to say, nothing left to offer. I'm no one and I'll be no one for the rest of my life and I don't think I can cope with that.

I wish I was who I sometimes think I am, but I'm not. I'm just a little girl easy to bully, easy to put down. Sometimes I feel deserving when someone puts me down. Really, how pathetic is that?

You know, I really hate apologizing. I never do it, I don't know why I'm doing it now.

Up, down. Up, down. Up, down. That's just me. Fine today, sad tomorrow. No one should have to take this.

* P.S. I'm sorry this post is so deadly emo. If you where planning on commenting something about it, please don't. I feel bad enough as it is, so just comment if you aim to put a smile on my face. Otherwise, abstain.